Geneva’s Guidance

I went most of my life fantasizing about sucking a man’s cock. This was not due to a porn addiction as I would agree is a contributing factor today.
I grew up before computers and the internet. Porn was extremely limited for me. I can honestly say my desire to experience sucking a man’s penis came before I had any exposure to porn of any time including magazines.

For me, it started with sexual conversations and innuendos about blowjobs and people saying things like suck my cock. I even overheard women and girls talking about doing the act on occasion. I guess this peaked my curiosity.

Later in my relationships with women. I found I really enjoyed the cuckold lifestyle although then I didn’t even know it was called that. Whether that is related to what I’m about to share I am not sure, but I feel most likely it is.

I had several relationships with women that enjoyed the cuckold lifestyle. In fact, when I suggested it they readily agreed, and was happy to do so.

Eventually, we did go our separate ways. But we maintained good relationship. I discovered that their new relationships were also cuckold relationships. So I feel there is probably many men out there like myself.

It was my last relationship that changed everything. I met Geneva. She was older than me by several years and very attractive. We began our relationship normally then as time went on, she shared that she was quite promiscuous when she was married. Her husband, unfortunately, was now deceased. He was almost 20 years older than her. And during their marriage he encouraged her to sleep with many men. She said there was times when she has slept with many men in a single day.

When she revealed this, I of course immediately confided in her that I was like her husband and enjoyed that kind of relationship.

The next week she asked me to drive her to a house only a few blocks away. I drove her and once there she told me she was going to go inside and fuck this man and she wanted me to wait in the car until she came back out. I did as I was told and waited. About an hour later she emerged from the house.

She got in the car and told me to drive home. I asked her if she enjoyed herself she said she did and give me a brief description of how they fucked.

Once home she took me to the bedroom, sat on edge of the bed, opened her legs and told me to lick his cum from her pussy. I found this to be incredibly hot, and immediately did as I was told.

This was the beginning of our cuckold relationship. It became our normal routine of me taking her places to meet men. Eventually they just came to our house. She would take them to the bedroom and fuck them for as long as she wished, and then they would go.

We did not marry, but we lived together for several years in this way. Then, one day she met a man a little older than her but who was very financially stable.

She sat down with me and explained she was now in her 60s. She told me that she thought being with this man would give her more financial security as I never made very much money.

So she moved in with him. But we remained friends. She would often call me. She would talk to me allowing me to jerk off my cock listening to her lustful tales.

It was during one of these conversations I shared with her that I always had a desire to suck another man’s cock. She told me she thought that was an excellent idea and encouraged me to pursue it.

She called me the next day and arranged to meet for lunch. At our meeting she again was encouraging me to act on my desire to suck cock. She had brought some panties with her and told me to start wearing them. That if I feminized, I would enjoy being with men more. I would accept it as more of a natural act as I would be disguised as a woman. She said she had previous experience with feminizing men and would be thrilled to help me.

The next day Geneva called me and asked if I was wearing the panties?
I answered I was. She asked me for a picture to prove it. I sent her the pic. She was pleased. She also said she was happy to see that I took it upon myself to remove all my body hair.

I could sense her excitement in her voice. She told me she was proud of me making the decision to feminize and turn gay. I told her I had not turned gay and I wasn’t really attracted to men. I just wanted to experience sucking a cock.

She told me that once I experienced being in the feminine female role kneeling and sucking a dominant man’s cock. I would want nothing else.

She told me going forward I was to only watch porn with the women fully clothed sucking cocks or gay porn. I told her I really didn’t find gay porn the slightest bit arousing. She said for me to obey her and soon being a submissive gay sissy would feel natural to me. She insisted I would love being submissive and feminine for real men.

I did as she instructed. I only jerked off to women sucking and jerking cock. I watched extremely little gay porn as it still repulsed me to watch. I informed Geneva of this during our next conversation. She sent me two pictures of cocks one white and one black. Not erect but hanging large semi-hard. She told me to put them on my phone wallpaper and look at them often. She told me going forward if I wanted to jerk off I must call her for permission to cum.

So, I did. The next time I wanted to come I called her and she asked me if I was watching porn? I was. She then told me to describe the cock. I did. Then she told me to jerk and cum while telling her about the cock. This went on for several days. Then I discovered sissy hypnosis porn and began watching and jerking to that. She said it was important I accepted being feminine and submissive to masculine men. I needed to ensure I stayed limp in the presence of masculine men. I found this conflicting considering she spent all this time training me to get excited and hard at just the sight of a big cock.

She told me to practice cumming faster and faster until I could do it in under 30 seconds. She had me jerked off more than ever and only to cock and sissy porn. She said it was important for my penis to always be limp and soft.

After a couple of weeks she took me shopping at thrift stores for women’s clothes. She taught me how to dress and apply makeup. She had me dress as a woman every night and send her proof. She often told me I was a pretty and passable as a woman. She made sure I remained tucked at all times even at night when sleeping. She said binding and limiting blood flow would help keep my balls small and dick limp.

She took pictures of me and posted them on AFF and advertise for dominant men to serve. She definitely had a plan and all the while daily encouraging of me to be submissive and to admire the bodies of to real men.

Eventually I got a response from AFF it was a man wanting me to meet him and suck his cock while he drove around. I dressed as pretty as possible. Geneva came by to assure my makeup was just right. Then she drove me to meet him.
I think to assure I didn’t chicken out.

I got into his truck and he already had his cock out. As he started driving I reached over and stroked his cock. I loved how hard it was and it felt so good in my hand. He told me to start sucking. I did. It was my first cock and I found it very exciting, sucking him in his truck .

He pulled into a parking lot and stopped the truck so he could finish and cum. I handed him my phone and asked if he would make a video. He smiled and agreed. He filmed me sucking and when he came and of my swallowing his load. Then he handed me back my phone and put his cock away.

He drove me back to the meeting place where Geneva was still waiting for me.
I showed her the video. She was thrilled and happy to see it. She asked me smiling. “Are you hooked on cock now?”

I smiled and answered with a big grin. “Yes, definitely”
She squealed with excitement. I am so glad. She said. She drove me home and went back to her house to her rich man.
She called me several times telling me how proud she was of me, and that she wanted me to suck many cocks. She wanted me to try all sizes and colors.

Listening to her excitement and encouragement made me very happy. I wanted to please her by being as feminine and gay as possible for her. She told me to get back on AFF and this time find a black man.

I did she instructed and the next day found an elderly black man and met him at a hotel. He was nice and spoke kindly to me as I sucked his penis. He had a beautiful uncircumcised black penis. I found myself thinking how attractive it was compared to a white penis. He allowed me to video my sucking his penis for Geneva to view later.

He said encouraging things while I sucked his penis complimenting me telling me I was a good cocksucker. I swallowed his load and arranged to meet again.

Afterwards I contacted Geneva to show her the video. She was very pleased. Which gave me a warm happy feeling and increased my desire to dress feminine and be with men. She had me post the video on AFF so others could see me as female sucking cock.

The next black man to contact me was Leon he lived in the black neighborhood near me. Geneva helped me prepare for my meeting. I went to his house. He opened the door and I immediately noticed he was tall and dressed nicely.

He invited me in and I saw a sexy dressed white woman sitting on a chair in his living room. She appeared to be in her late 30’s. She gave me a friendly smile, and wave wiggling her fingers at me. I looked back toward Leon. he had stopped about 5 feet ahead of me. I immediately noticed that he had pulled out his cock. He told me to suck his cock. I glanced back at the woman. She was still smiling, and gave me a nod and hand jester to go ahead and do as he instructed.

I went over to him got on my knees and did just that. I started sucking his cock while the woman watched. I found it exciting to be dominated in that way with his female friend watching.

After a few minutes of standing while I nursed on his cock. He pushed my head back and pulled his cock from my lips. I followed him to a chair he sat down, and I knelt down between his legs and continued sucking on his penis. His penis was very thick especially near the base. The woman approached us and introduced herself to me as Kathy. She then reached out and cupped his balls as to be offering them up to me, and told me to be sure to lick his balls.

I stopped sucking and began licking his balls as she held them. She had a casual conversation with Leon as she held his balls for me.

I heard two other people enter his house. They didn’t knock but just walked in. They sat and spoke with Leon without commenting on the fact I was there licking his balls. Kathy put his cock in my mouth. I sucked it without looking at the men.

After a short conversation with Leon and Kathy the two men left. After they were out the door Leon stood up pulling his cock from my mouth and walked to the other side of the room. I sat watching his cock as he went. He stopped in front of a shelf and began looking through some papers.
He paused and looked over at me.
“Bitch you have one job. Get over here and suck my cock.”

I got up and went to him and resumed sucking his penis. After that I followed him around his house and resumed sucking whenever he stood still.
Eventually he sat down on the chair again and shot his load into my mouth.
I could see Kathy smiling and watching as I swallowed his load.

After he finished he pulled his cock from my lips and told me to be back the same time tomorrow. As I walked towards the door he said loudly “Be prepared to be fucked tomorrow.”

I called Geneva to tell her about my time with Leon. She was pleased that I was so submissive to him and that others watched me submit to him. I told her that he said he wanted to fuck me the next day. She told me not to eat and give myself several enemas before then. I told her I wasn’t sure I was going back because I wasn’t sure I wanted to be fucked. Geneva said I must. I needed to experience it.

The next afternoon Geneva called me to check if I followed her instructions. I told her I did, but still wasn’t sure if I was going.

She said she was going to be at my place to help me get ready to assure that I went. By the time I got home, she was there waiting on me.

She made sure I was dressed and prepared for Leon. She insisted on driving me to make sure I did not back out.
When we arrived at Leon’s Geneva told me to do whatever Leon wanted and she was proud of me. I went inside and she left.
I was surprised as soon as I got inside Leon instructed me to kiss him. I had never even considered kissing another man. I knew Geneva wanted me to be accept my feminization and be with men. I thought of that when I approached Leon. He again surprised me by giving me a passionate kiss. After the kiss he undid his pants and pulled out his cock.

I dropped to my knees and started sucking his penis. Kathy arrived and greeted Leon. Then walked up to me gave my hair a gentle stroke and smiled at me as I sucked on Leon’s black cock.

After sucking Leon’s penis for 30 minutes or so, Leon told Kathy to bring him a condom. She handed me the condom and I put it on Leon.
He lead me too, his bedroom, bling me over the edge of his bed, raise my skirt and fold my panties down. Kathy applied a small amount of Vaseline for the condom. Leon inserted it in me and proceeded to fuck me.

Kathy exited the room and Leon continued to thrust his cock into me for quite some time. When I heard Kathy speaking with some men at the entrance to the bedroom.

One of the men spoke to Leon. “Training a new whore I see.”
Leon answered. “Yes, come on in and take a turn.” The man answered. “ I will”
And entered the room.
A minute or so later Leon pulled his cock out and I felt the other man pressing down on my back as he fucked me. He fucked me for about 15 minutes and he came inside me. After he puled his soft cock out I realized he did not wear a condom. He looked at the other man and told him it was his turn. When I looked at him I saw the third man was wearing a condom.

I remained in my position leaning over the bed. When he got to me he turned me over facing him. He put my legs up with my feet on either side of his head.
He started fucking me and continued for 30 minutes or so before he came.
After he pulled out he pulled off his condom and handed it to Kathy.
She held it over my mouth and and told me to open my mouth. She emptied his jizz into my mouth. I swallowed it but did not like the rubber taste it also had from the condom.
Leon thanked the men and they left.
Kathy brought me a soda. I took a sip. Leon called me to his chair, so I gave the soda back to Kathy.

As I approached Leon he wagged his cock at me indicating I was to suck his penis. So I knelt between his legs and began sucking his big penis.
Leon spoke “Now you’re my bitch. You will be here every day by 7 pm. You will suck cock and bare your ass for anyone I say.”

Kathy approached us. She held up her phone showing me a video of Leon fucking me. Kathy changed the video showing me of me sucking Leon’s cock and the other men fucking me.

I took my mouth off Leon’s cock and asked Kathy if I could have copies.
“No! “ Leon said. “ But we will put it on the internet for everyone to see if your not here everyday doing what I say”

I continued sucking his cock. Kathy asked who it was that dropped me off?
I stopped sucking Leon’s penis to answer. “ That was my friend Geneva.”

Kathy said. “What if I show it to her?”

I smiled at her. “That would be great. That’s why I wanted copies was to show her.”

Leon laughed. “Well., that’s interesting.”
She obviously knows that your a sissy bitch and here sucking cock then?”

I explained. “Yes, in fact this was all her idea. She wants me to be submissive and gay.”
Leon laughed again. “When is this woman coming back? I want to meet her.”

She’s waiting for me to call her. I told him. He said, call her tell her to come.
Tell her just come in the house.

So I texted Geneva and told her. She replied that she was on her way.
Leon said let’s get you ready then.
He looked at Kathy and told her to rub his balls while he jacked off on my face.

Before Geneva arrived he shot his load on my face hair and blouse. He told me to leave his jizz to show Geneva.

Geneva arrived and knocked at the door.
Leon told me to answer the door and let her in, but to return to him and kneel at his feet.
Geneva followed me as I did as I was instructed.

Leon greeted her and told Geneva that I said she was responsible for me being there. Geneva acknowledged that this was true. Leon told her that I have sucked cock and been fucked by three men and my ass was filled with cum. She could see my face was covered in jizz.

Leon motioned to Kathy to show Geneva the videos. Which she did. Geneva’s smile made it obvious that Geneva liked seeing the videos.
Leon told Geneva that he wanted me to go to his house every day to suck and fuck his clients.
He asked Geneva if that would be all right with her? She said definitely, just as long as I’m only with men.

Leon chuckled. And said we’ve got a deal then will you be bringing him every day?
Geneva answered him no, but she would make sure that I showed up.

On the way home Geneva seemed excited and happy. She asked me if I liked getting fucked. I told her I like feeling submissive and helpless as they fucked me.

Geneva asked me what they were going to do with the videos. I told her that they originally were going to use them to blackmail me into being a gay hooker for him. But then he realized threatening to show them to you, wasn’t worrying me.

I told him I wanted you to see it. He didn’t need to blackmail me. You want me to be a sissy and be with lots of men.
That’s when he had me call you.

Were you proud of me when they showed you the videos? I asked.
Geneva answered. Yes she was very proud.

Then she asked me if I wanted this as my life now, sucking men’s cocks and letting them fuck me?

I told her I did. She smiled at me and told me she knew I would love cock once I gave it a try.

The next afternoon, and every day after that Geneva called me to be sure I was at Leon’s on time.

For the next few days, men would come to Leon’s house where I would suck their cocks or let them fuck me. While Leon and Kathy observed. Then one day Leon told me I was to go for a ride with him and Kathy.

I was sitting in the backseat while Leon drove, and Kathy was on the passenger side . They told me that we were going to ride around the poor black neighborhoods. They said every time they saw a black man on his own. Kathy was going to ask him if he wanted a blowjob if the man said yes, then when he got in the backseat, I was to suck his cock.

They drove around and in a short, while we saw a man standing outside a gas station. He had the look of a vagrant about him to me. Leon pulled over, and Kathy walked up to the man. I could not hear what she said, but she brought the man back over to the car open the back door. He looked in and saw me there.

Kathy had done a good job with my make up and everything I looked very female. The man got inside and sat down. Kathy got into the front, turned around toward the man. I told him to pull his cock out. He smiled at us, both, undid his pants and pulled out his cock.

I immediately moved into position and started sucking his cock. It wasn’t very long befor I got it hard. we did not drive anywhere. We just sat there as I sucked the man’s cock. When the man came, I swallowed his load. Afterwards, he put his cock away and exited the car.

Leon began driving again. Kathy looked back at me and told me if I wanted to I can spit it out. I don’t have to swallow it.
I told her Geneva told me to always swallow.

Leon laughed, and said “I do like that woman. “ Speaking about Geneva.

We drove around that night. For several hours, repeating what we had just done 10 or 12 times. When we got finished Leon told me he was training me. That the next day he intended to have me walk the streets there. he wanted me to suck anyone’s cock that asked. He said to ask each one for $20. he said if they didn’t have $20 I was to suck their cock for whatever they offered. He said he would watch me and follow their car if they drove off for me to suck them while they were driving.

He said every time they got done, and I was put out of their car. I was to give him whatever money I had received.

I told Geneva that this was what he was going to do. I told her I was scared and nervous to be doing anything like that.
Geneva said it would be a good experience for me. And she told me to obey Leon and do it.

So the next day Geneva help me with make up and my clothes. I went to Leon’s and Kathy helped me make sure my penis and small testicles were properly tucked away.

Leon drove me out to the same area, where the previous night he had me riding around giving away free blowjobs.
He parked the car and told me to start walking and to circle the block and keep his car in sight so that when I got in a car, he could see it and follow.

I did as he instructed. It wasn’t long before I got in, the first car that picked me up.

I will tell you what happened next in part 2.