Ashamed but happy

Hi my name is Kelly.I have 2 boys both in there early teens and a husband who's always at work.My husband is gone a lot cause of work and doesn't spend much time with me and the boys.So I never thought about cheating on my husbamd at all always was a loyal wife.So about 2-3 years ago my kids joined this roller hockey club,the coach was really nice looking and was a really great coach.Through the season I started to have a thing for him,my husband was away and he was basically like the father figure for my sons.Anyway fast forward some time I went out drinking alone had nothing else to do and I saw him we had a really good talk and we were really drunk.He told me he was having some trouble with his wife,he grabbed my hand and took me outside and started to kiss me I couldn't help it I kissed him back.We ended up going in his car where I gave him a BJ but after that he said let's go somewhere else we went to a hotel and he fucked me really good.We started an affair after that day he had fucked me on him and his wife's bed.Fastforward even more we had a lot of sex and continued our affair one day we were at his house having sex,his wife had forgotten something and came back and found us on their bed having fun,she started crying right tehre and screaming and ran out of the house.I had always bugged him about him leaving her for me and he said he would but never pulled the trigger.Im white blonde with blue eyes he is white blonde blue eyes and she is Spanish and he would never leave her for me until that day.When we were caught e was on top of me and then once she left tahts when he said you know I think it's time for me to end that chapter and kept fucking me.He had filed for divorce and so did I and now we are living together and he fucks me way better than my husband ever did and I'm much happier.I know it's fucked up that to get my happiness I ruined 2 families my boys live with there dad after he took a position were he doesn't travel no more and they hate me and then you have his side where his 4 boys hate me and the wife is now all alone.I kinda feel guilty but I can't help it I am in love with this man and we are going to get married one day.Please let me know what you guys think