My first man

I was a forty year old black man, newly divorced and no children. I admit I was lonely and horny as heck. I was always considered good looking and got a lot of attention from women. I stood 6ft2, 195 lbs of lean muscle, very dark skin, thick lips. But I had a huge problem, I was painfully shy. Every woman I've had, had to aggressively pursue me, including my ex wife.Now I'm alone and horny and too shy to approach women. My normal routine was to drink a pint of gin, fantasize and masturbate, then go to sleep. Funny thing is I always fantasized about men. In highschool an older black guy tried to pick me up and I turned him down. But that night I masturbated to an explosive climax thinking about that man fucking me. Over the years I would periodically fantasize about men and masturbate when I was between women. This night as I was drinking my gin and fantasizing about men, I remembered a movie ad I had seen about a gay movie theater. Somehow instinctively I knew that if I went there I could hook up with a man.I drank the remainder of my Gin for some added courage, showered, dressed and headed in my car to the gay movie theater. Ten and later I arrived at a small somewhat hidden theater. I approached the ticket window and paid to enter. When I entered the lobby, I saw several guys sitting around. When I walked in all eyes devoured me. I went in and sat down in an almost empty theater. I saw two men on screen sucking each other dicks. My dick got hard when the older black guy started fucking the plump ass of a light skin young black guy. I didn't need to see anymore. I got up and walked to the lobby. My dick was trying to bust out of my jeans. When I saw the guys staring at my crotch I got even harder. I saw stairs leading to the second floor which I started to climb slowly while trying to show off my plump ass, by switching just a little. When I reached the top of the stairs I was shocked. I saw about 10 guys lounging around on couches, and a little further I saw a lot of small wooden cubicles. As I approached the cubicles I noticed there were various size holes at different heights in the cubicles. I was drunk and didn't know how this worked, all I knew was that I was going to find an empty cubicle and go in. When I saw a cubicle that seemed empty I went in. As soon as I closed the door I heard a knock. I opened the door and stared in the face of this incredibly handsome white guy. I had not seen 1 good looking guy since I entered the theater, but here was this gorgeous hunk of a man pushing past me into the cubicle. There was a wooden bench at the back of the cubicle. He didn't say a word he just gently pushed me against the bench. I'm standing there staring at this manly stud about 5 inches shorter than i.with a thick muscular body, dark mid length hair, brown courdoroy pants with a huge bulge. He immediately pulled my shirt over my head then took his own shirt off. I stared at the silky black hair on his broad chest. He took me in his arms and started to stick his tongue in my mouth. I could feel his belly against mine as he explored my mouth with his tongue. I immediately began kissing him back and caressing his naked back as he kissed me and squeezed my ass. He reached down unbuckled my pants and I stepped out of them while pulling my shorts off simultaneously. I pulled his pants off he wasn't wearing underwear. I felt his body heat and his hard dick plopped up under my own. I was about 6 inches uncut he was about 8 cut inches. I never even had oral sex with a woman but when he pushed my head down I didn't hesitate. I took his big dick in my hand and brought my mouth down on the big pink head of his dick. As I stated sucking the head of his dick enthusiastically I could feel his hands grasp the back of my head and push deeper into my mouth and start moaning. I enjoyed hearing the sounds he made as I was sucking his dick. I could feel my own cum leaking on my thigh. He pulled me up off his dick and took me in his arms and started kissing me and fondling my naked ass. Then he sat me on the bench got between my thighs hoisted my ass up and I could feel the head of his dick against my asshole. He tried to push it in and couldn't. So he got on his knees and began licking my asshole. I was going insane with pleasure and couldn't help moaning loudly. When his tongue penetrated my hole I lost my mind. He stood back up and put the head of his pulsing dick against my hole. Before I could say a word he pushed the head inside me. It was kinda painful but I wanted it so badly. As he pushed in further I didn't know if I was going crazy with pain or pleasure. He finally pushed all the way in and began to slowly move back and forth. At first I just lay there trying to adjust to this invasion of dick. But then he cupped my ass in his hands leaned his body against mine started kissing me and seriously stroking that dick. I moaned like a bitch in heat and began trying to match his thrusts by pushing my ass into him. He went faster but never stopped kissing me. Suddenly he thrust hard all the way into my ass twice and I could feel his hot cum squirting inside me. I couldn't hold back, I ground my dick into his stomach and squirted cum all over his belly. Seemed like I couldn't stop squirting cum. He pulled out of my ass and for the first time he spoke to me. He told me how good it felt and that he wanted to make it a regular thing. After we cleaned up and got dressed he gave me his name and number. As soon as I left the theater I threw his number away, because I didn't want to be gay and I knew with him I would be as anything he wanted me to be. That was 20 years ago and I still regret throwing that number away.