Saying goodbye before running away part 2

I headed to my ex's house and I was about to knock on the door before I hesitated. I turned around and looked at the front yard. We were going to start a family. We bought this house for that purpose. I remember I couldn't wait to have kids and see them playing on the front lawn.
Fuck
What the hell was I doing? I was gonna run away with my cousins just because I had a lot of sexual tension with them.
I can't have kids with them.
I can't start a family with them.
So what was the point? Just to fill my sexual needs?
Im not doing this.
I pulled out my phone to call them and I told them I needed to have a serious conversation later. I put my phone away and knocked on the door. She opened up and I was surprised to see her pajamas and has icecream in her hands. We broke up over a year ago.
She, in panic was trying to close the door but I slided in right before she closed it
She pushed me and said "what the hell do you want John!" while almost crying. I hugged her and I said "I miss you" and she put her arms around me also and said "I miss you too"
Then she pushed me away and said "you dumped me for your stupid cousin!, we were going to have a family and you threw that all away!, for the past year, I've been trying to go back into the dating world and all the guys just wanted to fuck, everybody scrammed once I told them I wanted a family. For fucksake, I even tried a few girls but nothing worked"
I told her that was a huge mistake and I never should have left her and I told her I wanted another chance at this because SHE was my girl. No matter who I fucked, or who I wanted, nobody can deny that at the end of the day, shes my family.
She ran up to me and hugged me and I kissed her forehead and we slow danced to the depressing music she had on