Cousins Hidden Desires Pt. 1

“Damn Journee, you always doing something,” Avondre said as he looked at the weed that she had made him spill in his lap.

He held a half-rolled blunt in one hand while he brushed the crumbs to the floor of his car with the othero9. Avondre Watkins was sitting in his car with his younger cousin Journee. The two of them had left their grandma’s house that they both have been living with for the last twenty years of their lives so that they could smoke a blunt before they went back home and turned in for the night. They both needed to be high so they could sleep.

Journee laughed, digging through her purse for her cell phone. “Hell nah, I ain’t do nothing. Don’t yo’ clumsy ass start blaming me for shit.” Journee popped her lips and then reached into the center console to grab his AUX cord so she could play some music.

The two had driven a couple of blocks before they pulled over so that they could roll up a few blunts before resuming their night ride. The two cousins always took a ride around town smoking and talking. Enjoying each other’s company.

“Yeah, what-the-fuck-ever, Nee.” He said sitting back in his seat and starting his car back up, passing the blunt off to Journee so that she could light it.

She laughed again, putting the spliff between her lips and lighting it with a small blue lighter that she always kept on her. Inhaling deeply, while she lit the end of it, she could feel the effects almost instantly. She had been working all day and had yet to smoke, it was a rough day at the office, and she was just ready to get high and chill with her favorite cousin.

Inhaling a second time, Journee held the smoke in for a few moments then exhaled, passing the lit blunt to Avondre.

“Aight, so this shit been on my mind recently. What’s some shit that you would do that most people would look down upon? Like, on some biggest fantasy type shit?” He asked as they came to a stop at a light.

Journee thought for a minute. It was a random question, a personal ass one too. But it was Dre that she was talking to, so she didn’t mind sharing with him. She was sure that it was just the weed kicking in.

“I know this sounds bad and is kinda fucked up because it really happens to people out there. But...” Her voice trailed off and she looked to see Dre looking at her.

His face was blank, so she grabbed the blunt that he held out for her to take and looked out of the window before taking a long pull and then exhaling. “I have this rape fantasy that turns me on so fucking much. It’s wild.”

In her peripheral, she could see Avondre’s head snap back. He hadn’t been expecting that.

“Wow. I woulda never fucking thought.” He said with a soft chuckle. “So, you mean like, you actually want to be raped by a stranger?” He asked.

She shook her head. “Eh, not really. I mean like... Ugh, it’s hard to explain,” She fumbled over her words.

“We got time. Help me understand.” He chuckled. He resumed driving when the light turned green.

“Not by a stranger, though. Like I want it to be someone that I can trust, you know? Because there’s no telling what a stranger would do. They might go too far as to kill me. Plus, who knows if I will even like it. The thought of being forced and taken sexually arouses me but experiencing it is a whole different thing.

“What if I end up not liking it like I think that I do? A stranger’s not gonna stop. So, in my head, if I were to ever actually pursue that, I want it to be with someone that I trust. There will have to be a safe word and all of that just in case I end up being uncomfortable and want to change my mind.” She turned to look at him and gauge his reaction.

His hand was at his chin, combing through the coarse hairs of his goatee, thinking.
“It’s weird and kind of messed up, I know. But-” He cut her off.

“Nah. Not like mine. Mine is weird and definitely messed up.” He shook his head, thinking about what he was about to confess.

She waited for him to speak up. “Well, tell me, foo.” She laughed.

He chuckled with her and scratched the back of his neck, suddenly nervous. He didn’t know why his dumb ass brought it up, but it was too late to backtrack at that point.

They came to another red light, and he looked at her. “Uh, my biggest fantasy...would be to fuck you.” He cleared his throat at the end and kept his eyes forward waiting for the light to change.

It was quiet for a few moments.

“Why would you want to fuck me? I’m your cousin.”

“It’s weird and wrong, I know. But I think that’s another reason why it turns me on. The forbidden aspect of it. Just the thought of what our families would think if they ever found out makes my dick so fucking hard. It would have to be on some sneaky, just between me and you type shit and...” His voice trailed off as his dick hardened in his jeans.

He was talking way too much, revealing thoughts that he had only ever kept in his head. And there he was telling the very person that he had been having nasty ass thoughts about one of his darkest secrets and desires.

It was Journee’s turn to be quiet. By that time, they had finished their blunts and were heading back to grandma’s house.

“I didn’t mean to make shit weird. I don’t even know why I asked that. I’m high.” He finally spoke up while he unlocked the front door and stepped inside with her following behind him.

Their grandma, Mary, hadn’t come home yet, so they assumed that it was because she decided to stay out late and go play bingo with her friends. So, the cozy three-bedroom two-story home was all theirs for the next few hours.

“Boy, bye. Ain’t nothing wrong with that. I think it’s natural to have crushes on your family members that you’re close to. Those who are blood-related just need to make sure that they never take things there, you know?”

He nodded at her words as he followed her to the back of the house and to her bedroom. “You trust me, Nee?”

She had just thrown her purse onto her bed and was kicking her shoes off when he asked her the question. When Journee turned to face him, her breath caught in her chest at his proximity.

With him standing at six-foot-three-inches tall, Avondre towered over Journee. His tall lanky frame, smooth brown skin, and handsome yet boyish features were always attractive to her. He was a pretty boy and looked much younger than his twenty-four years of age.

His intoxicating scent filled her nose, making her dizzy as he looked down at her, his normally brown eyes, almost black with desire. He was waiting for her to answer.

“Of course, I do. You know you’re the only person that I trust.” She said almost breathlessly.

She hated how she felt her nipples become painfully tight at the predatory look in his eyes. She had never seen him like that before and it both scared and thrilled her at the same time.

The truth was that Avondre wasn’t the only one who had a fantasy of fucking someone that they shouldn’t. For as long as she and Dre had been raised together, she had always had a crush on him. It was part of the reason that she spent so much time with him. He treated her much better than most of the boyfriends that she’s had in her twenty-one years.

It was innocent when they were younger. But as she got older, and they both went through puberty, she noticed that her body reacted to him in ways that she would have never experienced before. And she wasn’t the only one that noticed the change in how she looked at and behaved around her step-cousin.

Over the years, Mary watched as Dre and Journee grew extremely close around the time that they were teens and made sure to make it known that they were “family.” So, from that moment forward, it was in their heads that they could never be.

But as of lately, Avondre had seriously been struggling with his attraction to Journee. She was everything that he wanted and needed in a woman. And the fact that he technically couldn’t have her only made him want her more. And in the worst way. He was tired of fighting it.

She knew every one of his secrets and hadn’t told a soul about any of them. What was one more secret between them? A shared secret at that.

His dick was painfully hard as he looked down at her, his eyes focused on her full pouty lips, which were slightly parted. He wanted to kiss her so bad. Her big doe-shaped brown eyes were wide, her chest heaving up and down due to her labored breathing. It was at that moment that he knew she wanted him just as bad as he wanted her.

Fuck it. He didn’t wait another moment to pull her into his body, crushing his thick lips to hers.

A moan left her mouth as soon as their lips met in a heated kiss. Her slim-thick frame melted into him when he grabbed a hand full of her fat ass, gripping it firmly in his hands and slipping his thick tongue into her mouth.

He groaned as their tongues fought for dominance, his head swimming from lust and the rush that he felt from finally acting on his biggest fucking desire. Now that he finally had her where he wanted her, he wasn’t about to hold back.

The savage in him was coming to the surface, and he just hoped that Journee would be able to take all that he was about to give her. He had no control over himself when he was in pussy. It was a reason that he hadn’t quite been able to keep a girl around longer than a few weeks. He was too much for them to deal with, and he had too much dick that he loved stuffing in pussy with no inhibitions.

He couldn’t wait to have Journee’s face in her mattress while he blew her back out from behind. They had a rare opportunity seeing as Mary was usually always home. She made it her business to make sure that they were never left alone together on her watch, but she seemed to be lacking in that category lately.

Breaking away from his lips, Journee gasped and tried to catch her breath. “Dre.” She moaned his name.

“Hm?” He hummed, pushing her roughly back onto the bed and pulling his hoodie over his head, and tossing it somewhere around the room.

“We shouldn’t. What if Grandma comes back?” Her voice was small while she watched him strip out of the rest of his clothing.

She couldn’t tear her eyes away from the long, thick dick that sprung up when he dropped his pants and boxers. It was so much bigger than she had ever imagined and was way bigger than any dick that she had personally taken. Her pussy was weeping in the small denim shorts that she was wearing.

While she wanted it, she wasn’t sure about taking things there with him, knowing that their grandma was out and about and would be home soon. Journee was a screamer and there was no way that they wouldn’t get caught if she arrived home soon. And with all the dick that he had, she knew for a fact that she would be screaming her ass off. Mary had to walk past her room to get to her own. He was asking for them to be caught.

“Then we need to hurry up then, huh?” He bit down on his lip as he grabbed her by the ankles and dragged her to the edge of the bed so that he could unbutton her shorts and slide them down her legs.

When he reached for her panties to remove them, he raised his eyebrows when her hands grabbed his to stop his motions.

“I really don’t think we should do this right now.”

He paused for a moment, considering if he should stop or not. Then he looked down at the pale pink cotton panties that she was wearing and saw the large wet spot in the middle. She was soaked.

Looking back up at her, he saw the peaks of her nipples poking through the thin material of her crop top. Her sienna skin looking delectable under the dim lighting from the lamp on her bedside table. And then he remembered what she said her biggest fantasy was and then roughly pushed her hands away.

He settled himself onto the bed between her thighs and roughly tore her panties from her flesh. His eyes went to her pretty wet pussy. It was free of any hair or razor bumps and smooth and evenly completed.

Just fuckin pretty. Was what he thought to himself.

Looking up into her eyes, he licked his lips, making Journee hot under his gaze. Wishing that it was her clit that that tongue was swiping across.

“Safe word.” It was a demand. His voice husky and deep with lust.

“Tsunami.” She gave one up effortlessly.

“Use it if you have to.”

He didn’t give her a chance to respond to him before he latched his mouth to her pussy, firmly sucking her clit into his mouth.

“Oh my fucking god!” She moaned, her hands reaching out to grip the white comforter on her bed and her thighs clamping tightly around her cousin's head as he licked, sucked, and fingered her pussy.

“Ah!” She screamed when he suddenly sat up on his knees and grabbed her by the back of her neck and pulled her into a sitting position. His movements were rough and caused her pain. They made her wetter.

His hand was tightly gripping the back of her neck, while the other held onto his dick and slapped it against her lips. “Open.”

She shook her head. “No, Grand-”

Her words were cut off as Avondre forcefully shoved his dick into her mouth, making it hit the back of her throat when she opened her mouth to protest.

Journee gagged, and her stomach heaved at the sudden intrusion, and it only made her pussy wetter.

“Mmm, that’s right. Shut the fuck up and suck this dick.” Dre was no longer talking. No, that was Von, the savage in him that had come to the surface.

Journee moaned around his shaft and looked him in the eye while he fucked her throat with no mercy. She gagged, choked, and slurped his dick, loving the pleasure faces, moans, and groans that left him as he thrusted his dick in and out of her mouth.

He had her neck in a vice grip, so she couldn’t get away from him if she wanted to. She was trapped there, and she just had to take it until he was satisfied.

Avondre licked his lips, his breaths fast and labored as he watched his pretty ass cousin suck on his dick. He needed to be inside of her.

Pulling out of her mouth, he slapped his dick across her face, pleased when she moaned in response. “You’s a nasty bitch. Ain’t you, Nee?”

Journey moaned and nodded her head.

Von grunted, and pushed her back onto the bed, before flipping her onto her stomach. Pulling her up onto her knees, arching her back, and roughly pressing her face into her mattress by the back of her neck, he lined his big dick up at her entrance.

“Wait! Condom, Dre.”

“Fuck them condoms.” He didn’t wait another moment to thrust his dick deep into her.

“Ahhh!” She screamed as his dick invaded her tight cunt. He entered her hard and fast, spreading her wide and hitting deep.

It was much too fast, and it hurt, but it felt so fucking good at the same time. His moans in her ear only made her wetter, knowing that she was bringing him so much pleasure. That she was the one having him in such a vulnerable state, even though she was the only vulnerable person in the room.

“Fuuuck, this pussy is so fucking wet.” He gave her a few slow and long strokes, but only for himself to appreciate the tightest, wettest pussy that he ever had in my life.

“Mmmm. Who would have fucking thought that my little cousin had some bomb ass pussy?”
“Oh my god! Dre!”

He slapped her big round ass, pounding hard into her pussy as hard and fast as he could. His hand still on her neck, forcing her head down and the other pushing on her back to make her arch deeper.

“Shit, baby! It’s too deep!” She tried to move away from him.

He pulled her back. “Uh uh, come back. Takin’ all this dick.”

Her trying to run only made him fuck her even harder. “Open your mouth.”

When she did as he instructed her to, he shoved his middle and ring finger down her throat, making her gag and choke on them while he kept pounding her out.

Journee’s body trembled hard underneath him as an orgasm built deep in her core.

“Dreeeeee!” She screamed at the top of her lungs as she exploded hard on her cousin’s big ass dick.

Her pussy gripped him so tight, massaging his dick as he throbbed inside of her, milking him.

He cursed under his breath as he thrusted deep into her one last time and spilled his seed deep inside of her before collapsing on top of her, completely spent.

They remained in that position for many minutes catching their breaths and riding out their orgasmic highs.

After pulling out of her, he took a moment to survey the aftermath of the mess that they had just made. His nut was slowly dripping out of her as she laid in the same position with her ass up and faced down. His dick twitched in response, threatening to brick up again.

He sat there for a few moments, his thoughts on another fantasy of his that he had. Might as well. He knew that when it came to Journee, he was in a judgment-free zone. And even if she did judge him, she would never let on that she was.

So, pushing his hesitance to the side, he settled himself back onto the bed again and began sucking his cum from his cousin’s pussy.

She was surprised but turned on all over again when she felt his mouth back on her. Alternating between caressing her clit gently with his tongue and using it to swirl around inside of her pussy, licking up and sucking as much of his cum out of her as he could.

Avondre’s dick was hard as brick as he tasted his own semen for the first time, surprised that he had actually enjoyed the taste of his own release. He had always wanted to know what it tasted like tasting it on a woman's tongue after they swallowed was never enough for him.

But it had taken him so long to go there because he was always afraid that one of his little bitches would go around calling him gay. That was another reason he was so attracted to Journee.

She was his safe haven. A place where he knew that he was loved, accepted, and not judged. And for that, he kept eating her pussy, giving her orgasm after orgasm until she cried and begged him to stop. Even then, he didn’t stop.

The only reason he didn’t fuck her again was that, at some point in the early morning hours, they heard the front door close and footsteps echo throughout the quiet house.
Both of their hearts beat rapidly in their chest as they hurried to throw their clothes on and have Avondre hide in her closet. Journee hurriedly got under her covers, turned off her light, and pretended to be asleep.

Moments later, her door creaked open, and Mary stuck her head inside. “Nee?” She whispered.

Journee pretended to stir.

“Nee!” She was louder that time.

Journee lazily sat up and rubbed her eyes. “Yeah?”

“Where’s Dre?”

“He picked up a double and let me use the car since I had work tonight too.”

Mary was quiet for a moment, and then sniffed the air and opened the door wider. “You been fuckin’ in my house, little girl?”

Journee’s heat fell in her ass, but she thought quickly on her feet. “No ma’am. But uh, I did play with my... You know.” She shrugged and did her best to feign that she was shy to admit it.

“Hmm.” Journee couldn’t see her face in the dark, but she was sure that she looked skeptical. “That better be all you doin’.”

“Yes ma’am.”

And with that Mary shut the door and returned to her room.

Once the coast was clear, Avondre emerged from the closet, moved to the door, and locked it.

“What are you doing?” Journee asked in a whisper.

“’Bout to go to sleep, duh. Scoot over.”

Journee shook her head and decided to give him a pass. “Fine. Set your alarm though. We gotta act like I have to go get you in a couple of hours now.”

“Yeah, yeah, yeah.” He said, pulling out his phone to set an alarm.

“Dre...”

“Yeah?”

“That was perfect. Thank you.”

He chuckled and moved in close to wrap his arms around her, spooning her. “It was, huh? Now go to sleep. You’ll need some energy to do it again.”

She just giggled and relaxed into him.

I really just fucked my cousin.

To be continued...