My son rapes me part 7 (going to see a counselor)

I managed to avoid Jay the rest of the day and night. I stayed in my room trying to convince people that I was sick and was quartined. I think some bought my lie. Others; did not.
On the 2nd day after the last rape I decided to go talk to a sexual abuse counselor in the neighboring city. Luckily they had a cancelation and was able to get me in.
I dressed in a comfortable sundress with a scoop neck collar and tried my best to cover the hickies my son gave me during my rapes with makeup.
I looked hideous. A mix between a slut middle schooler and an old maid hooker. But nonetheless I left the house.
I arrived to the office which was nothing like the pictures online. This place was almost isolated as all the buildings around was abandoned. The angel of the office was lysol and cigarettes. This made me uncomfortable but I was here so I was going to make the best of it.
Once inside the office only one man was there. He was the secretary, therapist, HR, I.T, cleaner, billing... he was all alone.
He was short and chubby. His hairline was way back near his ears.
He greeted me, accepted my credit card and lied me to a small office about the size of an average size kitchen.
Only 2 recliners. One couch and one ends table with a lamp. The walls were bare and the carpet was wine color.
He offered me to sit in the couch across from the recliner he sat in.
I told him the story of my life and how my son started raping me. How he has lied and manipulated his younger brother with his lies.
The therapist basically told me that I was his mother and that I needed to figure out how to assist my son during his difficulty of life right now.
I argued my side that he is grown, he is a full grown man who has been raping his own mother.
"This is not my fault! I screamed.
The therapist called me and told me that it wasn't my fault but that I'm his mother and it's my job to live unconditionally. He suggested coming back in the office tomorrow and to have Jay with me.
I reluctantly agreed. I have the therapist Jay's contact information and agreed to return tomorrow.
I drove straight home. Jay's truck was there and loud rock music was blasting through the outdoor speakers.
I had flashbacks of Jay raping me in the pool. I felt my heart race, my palms became sweaty. I swallowed hard and got out of my jeep.
In the house I noticed a girls bikini and a girls purse, shoes and towel.
"OH this is great. He's brought a girl home." I thought to myself. That he is moving on." I had instant mixed feelings. Relieved but arousal. I shook my head and tried to focus on reading my mail.
But I couldn't focus on the covid regulations I held in my hand. I kept thinking about Jay fixing another girl in my house.
I decided to grab the cameras. I looked room by room. I couldn't find them. Until I zoomed in on the far side of the pool. The deep end.
I saw Jay's back his hands on the edge of the pool. I could see a set of painted fingernails on his shoulders. The waves of the water were splashing they were so big. I turned the volume up so I could pick up the sounds from that particular camera.
I heard crying. She was sobbing. I could see the ripples through Jay's body because he was thrusting so hard. This girl looked like she was only a teenager. She was super skinny and her titties were barely there.
I couldn't turn it off. I kept watching. A few minutes of him pounding this girl. I saw him shift and he wrapped his arms around this girl and drug her into the shallow water. The girl was crying and trying to hit and kick Jay. She looked scared.
"I should do something!" I thought to myself as I grabbed my phone. But then I stopped.
I couldn't. He's my son. I sat there and watched him obviously rape this poor girl.
He spun her around and he lifted her leg out of the water. He then slid his cock into this girl. I watched my son's cock sink into this girl. She screamed as he began thrusting in and out.
Jay pulled her leg higher causing her pussy to tighten. He was thrusting hard causing her while body to bounce.
I moved the camera up and saw Jay's face. He was looking at the camera. He knew I was watching him rape this girl.
I notice that my pussy was wet. I was getting turned on. But why? Was it because I know how good she feels as he is fucking her? Is it because I love watching my son get pleasure?
I shook my head and as I went to put the screen down I saw him throw his head back and grunted. I knew he was cumming.
He released the girl and she fell into the water.
He went under the water to cool himself and to clean her pussy juice off his body in the pool.
Then he lifted the girl and carried her to the chaise.
He turned and grabbed a bottle from the cooler. He shook the bottle then offered it to the girl.
The girl was still crying but she took the bottle. She took a drink then set the bottle down.
Jay picked up the bottle and told her to drink it all.
Her hand was shaking as she took the bottle and turned it up.
Jay looked back at the camera. He winked. Then he walked into the house.
I kept watching the camera. The girl fell asleep on the chair. She was still naked as she slept.
I heard Jay knocking on my bedroom door.
"It's OK mom. She won't remember any of it. A concoction of 'plan B' and a memory altering drug".
A few hours later. The girl woke up. Grabbed her towel and clothes and left.
Jay knocked on my bedroom door. Then he opened it. "Mom. Are you awake?" He asked softly.
"Yes Jay. What do you need?" I asked in a matter of fact tone.
He walked in and stood at the for of my bed. I was wearing an oversized tee-shirt. My hair was long and I was sitting in bed under my blanket ready a book. His body wash was filling my room. He was only wearing a pair of shorts.
"I got a call from a therapist and wanted me to go to his office tomorrow. He said that you could fill me as to why." He stated as he crossed his arms over his chest.
I shook my head yes. Then proceeded to tell him " I need help trying to figure out what has been going on. He thinks that bringing you in to hear your side with a mediator that we can move past this. "
"Move past what mom?" He cocked his head and smirked.
I inhale sharply before speaking " your actions Jay, your lack of control, your manipulation of me and your brother. "
He smiled and nodded his head "ok. I am still not sure what you're talking about but ok mom. I'll do anything for you. " he stepped closer to me and sat on the edge of the bed next to me.
"Jay. You need to leave now. " I instructed him.
"Ok. Give me a hug mom". He asked sticky, childlike.
"Jay. I don't trust you. " I voiced with a creaky voice.
He leaned closer and he gently put his arms around me.
I held my breath afraid of I move he would force me again. I loosely hugged him.
His hand rubbed my back through my shirt. "Mom. I love you so much. " he whispered.
" I.... I love you too Jay". I said as I let my arms fall.
He kept rubbing my back. "I will do anything to make you happy mom. I hope you know that. " he whispered as his mouth moved closer to my ear.
My heart was racing and I was breathing heavy.
Was I getting turned on, was it fear, was it both? I shook my head side to side.
"No Jay. You need to go now". I spoke as I tried to push him away.
"Mom. You smell and feel really good. " he moaned again this time his mouth was in my ear. His breath on my neck.
"Jay stop. I'm very sore and I'm not feeling well. Please leave now" I spoke with a clearly shaken voice.
"Awe I hate that mom. Let me make you feel better. " he said as he slid his arms down my back. He scooped my ass cheeks and pulled me to him, then he pushed my backwards onto my back.
I began to yell " Jay stop. Jay don't do this. Jay this is wrong. " I pushed against his shoulders.
He sat up. I thought I could get up but he pulled my legs up and then pushed my knees to my shoulders.
My pussy was exposed and my arms and upper body pinned.
"Jay so stop stop. " I cried through gasps of breath.
He moved his mouth to my thigh. He bit and sucked the skin on my thigh. I cried out in pain, pleasure and fear.
He sucked a hickie on one thigh then he moved his mouth to my other thigh. He bit and sucked harder leaving a darker bigger hickey.
As my son kept his chest pushed against the back of my thighs keeping me folded in half.
He released my skin and he moved his mouth down to my pussy.
He slid his tongue between my pussy lips.
"Mmmmmmmm mom you're so wet". He moaned before moving his mouth to my pussy. His whole mouth covered my pussy. His tongue slipped inside my pussy lips and began to lick my clit.
I cried and tried to push my legs but I was no comparison against my son's body.
He moved his tongue faster across my clit. The heat from his mouth was making my pussy become more wet. Each breath gave more heat which caused my body to react.
The amazing feeling sent ripples through my body as my pussy throbbed guiding my pussy juice out and run down the crack of my ass.
My son moaned louder as he moved his tongue to my pussy and began to tongue fuck me, his mother.
I couldn't hold my moan as the feeling was so intense.
My son adjusted and pushed me further down allowing him access to my asshole. His tongue licked around my ass and back up to my wet pussy.
As the end of pleasure soared through me.
I began to cry and beg him to stop " please please please Jay, stop this. It's so so wrong" I cried.
Jay only focused on his tongue fucking my pussy and licking my ass.
He shifted and he slid one hand from my waist around my thigh. His fingers slipped into my pussy. His fingers worked in and out. The sloppy sound of his fingers thrusting in and out.
I cried and screamed. I continually tried to free my arms but being unsuccessful.
Jay was now finger fucking his mom as his tongue rimmed my asshole.
He added another finger into my pussy. I gene my pussy stretch around his thick fingers as they worked in and out of me.
He moaned as he added a 3rd finger. The pressure of his tongue in my asshole was so intense as he finger fucked me.
"No no no no" I cried as I felt my body react to my son's actions. I couldn't stop this full body orgasm.
My buddy quivered as wave after wave overwhelmed me. I moaned out "ahhhhh" Jay then pressed his tongue into my assjole as his 3 fingers continued to fuck my pussy.
I kept cumming. Wave after wave my pussy gushed around his fingers. His tongue flicked in my ass.
He moaned as drool from his mouth kept my ass lubed.
I was coming off of my full body orgasm as Jay pulled his tongue from my ass. He quickly sucked the skin high on my thigh.
I couldn't fight any more. I was weak. I was euphoric as my son added a 4th finger into my pussy.
The feeling of having my pussy full asking with my body still being on fire from cumming. I noticed that my hips were rocking against my son's hold.
Jay moaned again as he moved his mouth and sucked another area of my thigh to mark me.
Jay shoved his 4 fingers deep in my pussy. My pussy stretching around my son's fingers were intense.
I moaned unconsciously. Hearing my voice sounded foreign to me.
Jay pulled his 4 fingers out and then he pressed his whole hand in my pussy. I could only moan and cry as I could not move, I could not fight.
I cried out as he shoved his while hand inside my pussy. "It hurts, it feels good it shouldn't but it does." I screamed in my head.
My son was fisting me. I was cumming while being fisted by my first born son.
My whole body was on fire as I am folded in half with my knees on my chest and my son's hand fucking my pussy hard and fast.
After constantly cumming for felt like hours my son pulled his hand that was covered in my pussy juice from my pussy. Leaving me gaped. As my legs fell to my side. Jay got off the bed. And left my bedroom... I laid and sobbed