I want to buy a sex doll to be my gf

hi, im Owen. i'm 39 and i live in california. i have a thin 4 inch penis and haven't had sex in 15 years. i am also a premature ejaculator, and because of these things i am intimidated and nervous near women. i don't feel comfortable trying to date anyone so i am planning on buying a silicon love doll to be my girlfriend. i think i will feel safe and comfortable with a doll instead of a woman. what do you think of my decision?
women have always teased me all my life, and when they do "flirt" with me nothing comes from it because they are doing it just for fun