AbC - Chapter 2: Wilted Rose

My Name is Rose, when I was born I didn't have a father. A couple of years after I was born my Mother Re-Married a man named Richard. He was very Nice to me, all my years I thought when I was growing up, he was my Real Father. I didn't have any siblings or step siblings. For Years me and my cousin Allen have always cared about each other. Normally Cousins feel like siblings who don't live with you but siblings you have to visit. With Allen & I, I couldn't wait to see him every time. I have other cousins but I've always felt the closest to Allen. I remember playing toys with him, Games, having sleepovers, Camping, & many other things. I've seen what it's like when siblings hang out together & with Allen even though we were cousins, I've always felt that's what we Had. However I'd do somethings to my cousin that when we were little, he didn't appreciate. My Mother was a very hardworking woman. She worked for a company that often had business trips. Sometimes in my house I would hear weird noises coming from my parents bedroom. It would wake me up in the middle of the night. I was always Curious as to what those noises were. One night I decided to stay up past my bedtime for a midnight snack. I ran to the kitchen to get some Chocolate chip cookies because I always loved sweets. When I got a couple I heard the noises again and I went by my Parents room to check it out. I creaked the door open as quietly as I could, luckily the door wasn't squeaky. When I opened the door I saw my parents doing something Strange. I've seen my mom and my dad kiss before but this was different. My mom was kissing my dads "peepee" and sucking on it like a popsicle. I was so weirded out by what happened between my parents, I thought to myself "Ok this isn't something I was suppose to see". But as I made my way back to my room the door Squeaked. My parents stopped what they were doing and my mom was Shocked while my dad looked a little worried. My mom Immediately cleaned herself up and walked me back to my room. She told me "I'm so sorry you had to see that, but don't worry just try your best to forget about what you saw". I told her "Ok Mommy" but I thought about it for a while. Around 10 years old, my Mom was away on a business trip and my dad had to take care of me. He had a job but he was always able to drop me off and pick me up at school. One day I asked him about what happened that night. He said at first "Don't worry about it Rosie, that's something your not old enough to no about". That made me angry because at that age I was in such a hurry to grow up. I yelled back at him "No! its been bugging me & I'm gonna be a grow up soon I want to know". He had a slight smirk about him he told me "would you like me to show you?", I said to him "Eww, no isn't that something you and mommy do between yourselves?". He said back, "Your in a hurry to grow up Aren't you?". He then told me "she just does it to make me happy, sometimes that's what grown ups do even before they are mommies & daddies, I can teach you and you can make me happy just like Mommy". I told him "I'm not sure..." he replied "don't you want to make me happy?". I told him yes but he said it was ok. Whenever my Mom would be away my Dad would have me do what my Mom did that night. I felt weird doing this knowing that it was something my mom did to him. But I just wanted him to be happy; every time my Mom would leave, he would be sad. One night when I was 11, my mom came home a day Earlier than expected and she saw me do what she did. She was so angry at my Step-Dad they started arguing and pushing each other. My mom kept hitting him over and over until she grabbed a poker from the fireplace and hit him with it. His head would start to bleed like a cut I would get from a thorny bush or a bite from a dog. Afterwards he'd fall to the ground with blood spilling from his head and my Mother was so in Shock she grabbed and Hugged me Sobbing like a baby. I learned from a friend in Elementary School that I was doing was called "Giving a Blow Job". Her name was Scarlett & she was 4 years older than me so she was old enough to be in High School but she went to Junior High. When I found out what that really meant, I was sad & I cried randomly. The only thing, that made me happy was my cousin Allen. I had a crush on him when I was 9. I had no Idea it was considered wrong. When I got into Junior High I told Scarlett I had a crush on a boy, would it appropriate to give him "a blow job"? & She told me "only if you are dating, some people do it even when they are not together and they end up together right afterwards. She told me "You're too young to think about that, worry about it later like when you are 16-18". I told her "No I really like him and I'm not sure if he likes be back, but we see each other a lot & I want to Make him Happy". She told me "Look if you like him, you're going to be doing it eventually so you might as well do it". She wasn't exactly a good influence, especially since she had gone through a lot as a kid. At that point I was done feeling so "held back", I was in too much of a hurry to grow up. When I turned I decided "Forget it, this is what I want". So for a couple of weeks before Allen's Birthday, I "gave him a blowjob" while he was asleep. It felt awkward the first time, but I kept wanting to do it. I kept sucking down on him the morning after I slept over his house. I thought to myself, maybe if he likes it He'll like me. One morning before I had to leave he woke up and freaked out. "What.... what are you doing?" he said and I gasped. I run as fast as I could back to my room. Everyone else was Asleep so luckily I didn't wake anyone up.... except for one .... Allen. I was crying when I got into my room thinking "Oh no! what if I ruined it, what if I ruined everything?". That morning Allen's Parents woke up it was quiet during Breakfast. Usually right after breakfast I would leave, I hurried finishing my food and I ran out the door into my Mom's Car. She asked me "What's the Hurry, what happened?" I told her "Nothing Mom I'm fine I just wanna get ready for school soon". At that point it was July and the Summer was almost over. As soon as I got home, I ran into my room. I was so worried what he was thinking. After that morning it was incredibly awkward for us. I tried talking to him but he avoided me. Around the time a couple of weeks before school started, Scarlett invited me and Allen out to a Summer party. She called it the "Last Party" and a bunch of her friends and kids from school would come over. During the party Scarlett was introduced to Allen and we all hung out. Every time he would look at me he'd look away. She didn't know he was the one I had the crush on until she saw the way I looked at him at the party. She hosted the party till the Morning but people slowly left and the noise died down. When it got to 11 p.m. almost everybody was gone. Everybody else was swimming, making out, playing spin the bottle. by 11:21 Allen was about to leave but Scarlett asked him to stay because they were about to play Truth or Dare. Allen wasn't that tired but he wanted to get away from me, I could tell. Allen told Scarlett "I'm tired I should probably go..." "Come on Stay please? its the last 2 weeks before the next school year starts come on just for a little bit?". He said ok, and then She brought Him & Me up to Her Room so that No one new what we were doing. After we got into our room something weird happened.... something I was dreaming of but I didn't Expect it. What I didn't realize is what was about to happen was the deciding factor of whether or not Allen would continue ignore me....


To Be Continued in Chapter 3: Truth or Dare....