Numbing my clitoris

At 35 I am always horny.
Single for the past 3 years I’ve used just about everything to get a good orgasm.
Mostly I masturbate 2 times a day; during my shower in the morning and at night before bed.
Recently I got a strange fantasy about not having any feeling in my clit-and being extremely horny.
I didn’t want to do anything permanent for now like circumcise myself-at this time....haha!
I looked up a few things about perhaps over the counter numb cream. ladicane cream...I figured that just might work.
I ordered some on line and waited.
I’m always excited when ordering something sexy, like Im so naughty.
Few days later it was there at my door waiting.
I ripped it from from the bag and looked at it. It was about the size of a 35mm film case. Opening it up it didn’t have any smell. Dipping my finger into it was nothing special.
I ran a little across my lips and immediately felt my them going numb.
Perfect.
Reading the instructions said not for mucus membrane....
30 minutes for full effect.
I figured if it started going bad I could just wash it away.
I went to my bedroom pulled down my panties and slightly squatting, spread the numbing cream all over my clit and inside my vag. I was scared and excited.
I then pulled up my panties and waited.
There was a few things I had to take care of so went about a few house chores.
About 20 minutes I reached down and patted my croch. It was numb. Really numb. I decided to give it another 10 minutes.
After that I headed to the bedroom.
I immediately stripped.
Horny as ever, I started to poke and rub at my clit. I was totally numb!
I felt I could just take nail clippers to and snip it off it was so numb!
I leaned over and took my massager and pressed it against my dead feeling vag.....nothing!
I was starting to get frantic to feel something, even a tiny tingle. I took my glass dildo and tried that.
Nope, vag was dead too.
I absolutely was squirming to get an orgasm now.
I got up and got in the shower. Washing myself didn’t help-still numb!
Now almost an hour had passed.
I began to get concerned.
Using the vibrater again I tried to get something.
Slowly it began. Yes, it was tiny but I could feel something. It reminded me when I was 10 and first tried to masturbate.
After 30 minutes, I got a tiny orgasm, my entire body shook. I was so sweaty. I had been masturbating almost 2 hours and only one orgasm.
Taking another shower I thought I would go out, get a sandwich someplace.
After 4 hours; my clit was coming back alive with some soreness.
Couldn’t masturbate for a few days.
Maybe in a month.... I’ll do it again.