I decided it was my Turn

I've always been used by men, who discarded me when they had their fun with me. Finally realized it would never change unless I changed myself. First step was relocating somewhere knew, changed my appearance to a more modest style. On settling into my new home, I started by refusing date with men, I saw as uses. Which were most in my view, six months and in no relationships at all. I had been watching and looking for someone I could use for once. At 32 I finally started putting myself first, I found a man 34 single not in any relationship and didn't date at all. He was quiet on his private life and didn't enquire about others personal lives either. On a scale of one to ten he rated about five or six, main reason was lack of detail on his private life. But that made a plus in my mind, I started talking to him about work at first and slowly moved it to our personal lives. Like I'll tell you mine, if you tell yours type arrangement. It was slow going at first, I soon realized he had been hurt before and so I wasn't going to hurt him again. I'd been hurt myself and didn't want to repeat it to others. After about six months we finally had an actual date, and I still moved slowly. Finally becoming lovers after another seven months. To my surprise he suddenly became interested in our future relationship. He surprised me by asking me to marry him, I'd marked our relationship as a possibility of marriage in future. But his decision of proposing caught me off guard, at first, I was shocked. But quickly recovered and surprised myself, as I was very agreeable in my mind almost right away. But asked for more time to think it over, he agreed, and I waited six days before agreeing to marry him. He knew I'd similar problems to his in the past and let me think it thru without rushing me. We married fairly quickly three months later; I've since test positive to being pregnant. With our son due soon and I've come to believe I've found my life's perfect match.